I'm going to attempt no-shave November. I've just shaved and we'll see how far I get before my uneven stubble annoys me too much. Or I go see my family for Thanksgiving...

I'm not abandoning this, but I am going to shift focus to my writing blog at least for the month of November.

www.agentrusco.blogspot.com

(I'd link it, but blogger keeps breaking.)

I'm a bit of a baby. Never had uti before, so I went to urgent care to take care of it. I don't like bleeding from down there. Not one bit. Anyhow, I was nervous to go to not-my-doctor, but the nurse was fantastic. For gender on the form I put ftm because it's medical and that's the most true. So he had to double check for insurance and I told him I'm still female on that. He was really cool and professional the whole time. It really wasn't an issue at all. This is how it should be. Always. Especially when the thing someone comes in for has nothing to do with gender or even sex. So that was cool. Not looking forward to the bill I'm going to get from my insurance though, because I have a high deductible, so I have to pay for it all eventually.

Being ill really sucks. I couldn't make it though work today, and I cannot afford to miss more, so this antibiotic had better kick in soon.

I am going to work on getting my passport updated and renewed. It's quite the process. I need a letter, a very specific letter from my doctor stating that I'm medically male. She doesn't have to disclose anything at all, just state that. I have to fill out the renewal form. Get a photo. Bring my name change paperwork. Supply my old passport. Pay $110 and wait for a couple of months. It's the money that's the biggest issue. Hopefully I can call my doctor's office and get her to write the letter and get things rolling by next month.

I need to get out of the country as soon as I have some money. Now that my car is payed off, I can save again and it's slowly building back up.

Also, I love Autumn. I wish this weather was year-round. I love wearing a jacket in the morning and evening, and shirt-sleeves in the middle of the day. I love the chilly breezes and the crisp air. I love the smell of the trees and the color of the leaves. And the crunchiness too.

Where can I move that is always Autumn?

I just had a thought. It's been over a year since I've menstruated. It was something that was so constant in my life for over 10 years. And now, only occasional cramps remind me that I've don't miss it one bit.

Since I had to wait for 2 weeks for my shot, my mood has been a bit funky. Something very off emotionally. Working it out though. Thinking I should perhaps see my therapist again soon.

I did my shot yesterday, 1.25 cc. Hopefully that will lower m y levels back to a normal range and keep me from flutuating so much.

I'm enjoying my steadily building strength. I can now do 8 chin-ups in a row and 3 pull-ups behind my head. I can carry two 50lb bags of litter with ease. It's fantastic. Now just to do some cardio and watch my eating so I can get rid of this gut.